snickerdoodles: August 2016

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August 23, 2016

I look forward to the Facebook memories on my feed every morning. It is always a nice reminder of how fast the boys grow and to really try and be present. It is my third summer in a row of moving and there definitely will not be a holiday. I am so grateful for the family holidays in PEI at the MacLeod cottage over the years and the memories we created there. Facebook reminded me today of this day with my Noah in Charlottetown, which is only a few years ago but so much has changed. Yesterday working at the house he drove over to say hi and it was the first time I saw my kiddo driving alone. It was awesome but so weird. Then he came back later with Liam and some dogs in the back and it was the oddest thing. So hilarious and it made me happy but it was one of those moments when I life smacked me in the face and yelled: "They are TEENAGERS!" All is see sometimes is three little boys smiling at me from the bathtub or sitting at the table waiting for their dinner or lined up on the sofa belly laughing at a movie. Little faces, big eyes and chaos...and now big handsome men being so independent. I am not okay with this...slow down life!
Then they loaded Ry in and took him for a play date for me. All three of them drove away alone in the car and I felt completely stunned....but so proud. They didn't need me, which kinda breaks my heart, but they are taking care of one another and really amazing young men and that makes my heart nearly burst.
Then reality hit, I had so much to do to finish making the house a home for them before we move. I grabbed a cider, turned up the music and headed to the basement to tackle the spiders and get painting the ceiling. Everything is different but everything will be okay.
Here is the link to the post from 2012 when I shared this image here. http://www.snickerdoodles.ca/snickerdoodle_life/2012/08/putting-starbucks-to-shame.html

Happy Summer friends,
oxo

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August 17, 2016

falling apart, so things can start falling together...

On my birthday a mentor and stunning, wise lady stopped in and shared a book with me that I have been reading since. I have read it slowly letting some things soak in, re-reading sections I really felt resonate in me. I always enjoy Pema Chodrons musings, but this book was what I needed to hear. I mentioned in my last post waaaay back when (sorry, insert embarrassed face) but today is a big day for me and I awoke to another message from this friend I felt compelled to share.

Oh how I love the idea of this...letting there be room. Allowing feelings, being real. Everything happens for a reason. All that we go through is a lesson and makes us stronger. I have had to say goodbye to a lot and none of it was easy or something I wanted to part with but things changed. Life shifted and I had to protect my heart and stay on path and let go of anything that threatened that. I had to keep looking ahead and know that every step forward would be something to empower authenticity in myself and my boys. I have made heaps of mistakes but everything I do is for those three little men and to try and show them to follow their hearts.

Cancer is my zodiac sign and it is me through and through to a T. If you are on Pinterest and a Cancer as well follow my Zodiac Love board and be amazed.

I LOVE being home and making a nice home for my family. Saying goodbye to every home we moved from over the years has been difficult for me because home means so much to me. Renting since 2014 has been hard, it makes me insecure and afraid. The ambiguity of not having control over things makes me uneasy as a Momma Bear. Today something very very exciting is happening after months of rather complicated arrangements...I am signing the papers to MY OWN HOME!!!!

It is tiny and old but it is surrounded by lovely trees and I knew from the first time I saw it wearing my jammies and a toque after dropping the boys at school that it was right. Before I even stepped inside my heart started shouting out "YES". It felt right. Like I said, it was complicated and is definitely going to be a project fixing it up but I am beyond excited and proud.

So, off to the lawyers I go to empty my bank account and sign on the dotted line and stay tuned for the images of my new to me nest and endless DIY projects to come.

Luv ya friends, your support on this journey is something that fills me up and keeps me moving forward always. I would love to have you all over for a house warming but it will have to be outdoors because the biggest challenge of my new abode is that it is tiny. Full of possibility but not without entertaining challenges for sure.

oxo