Really I don't feel any older, I feel stronger and healthier than I have in almost ten years since having Liam and Ryan. Sure, if I could have my twenty year old skin back I would take in an instant, but all in all I am fine with turning forty.
It's my fave Smokey the Bear landmark in the Rocky Mountains this Wednesday when we did a quick roadtrip for hubbie's work. A fella built this in 1972 the year I was born. Somewhere we have a picture of me in front of this twenty years ago and twenty pounds lighter when hubbie and I first headed west from Ontario.
Dara Torres is my new fitness idol...she's six years older than me and she was still competing at an Olympic level till recently and she looks fantastic. Many a friend have done extraordinary feats in honor of their fortieth year...triathlons, daring bungi jumps, marathons but not me I had one small goal. Hubbie bought me a light Jacob denim dress on my 29th birthday when I first opened my store Funk.tion.al in Kelowna. It was very fitted with small snap buttons all the way up the front. It had zero stretch and the snaps are the type that open with the lightest tug. Last year when my defiant ponch was the size of a pumpernickel bread I couldn't even close the front. Slowly but surely and a lot more intensely lately I've worked it down to a pita bread and I am happy to report I can wear my dress again and I still love it. I can even eat a meal and sit comfortably without popping a snap. I am certain it was probably looser when I was 29 but I'll get there. I'm no Dara Torres but it was a good goal for me and just the beginning of my fitness journey and I'm happy. Maybe I'll get the motivation to do the popular big birthday triathlon by the time I'm 60...bungi jumping or sky diving might take at least until 80 and dimensia is setting in as I am a big wuss.
There has been a little two much happening in my world that's beyond my control lately and it's been upsetting but I'm confident things will be okay, sometimes things happen for a reason. I had a good day of hopeless sobbing but I'm rational again...that's a forties thing in my twenties I'd probably still be working it for at least another day or two!
Thinking of taking the boys to the lake today and just laying low is the perfect way to ring in this birthday.
Thanks for all the birthday wishes on facebook...I'm a lucky girl.
oxo
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