On my birthday a mentor and stunning, wise lady stopped in and shared a book with me that I have been reading since. I have read it slowly letting some things soak in, re-reading sections I really felt resonate in me. I always enjoy Pema Chodrons musings, but this book was what I needed to hear. I mentioned in my last post waaaay back when (sorry, insert embarrassed face) but today is a big day for me and I awoke to another message from this friend I felt compelled to share.
Oh how I love the idea of this...letting there be room. Allowing feelings, being real. Everything happens for a reason. All that we go through is a lesson and makes us stronger. I have had to say goodbye to a lot and none of it was easy or something I wanted to part with but things changed. Life shifted and I had to protect my heart and stay on path and let go of anything that threatened that. I had to keep looking ahead and know that every step forward would be something to empower authenticity in myself and my boys. I have made heaps of mistakes but everything I do is for those three little men and to try and show them to follow their hearts.
Cancer is my zodiac sign and it is me through and through to a T. If you are on Pinterest and a Cancer as well follow my Zodiac Love board and be amazed.
I LOVE being home and making a nice home for my family. Saying goodbye to every home we moved from over the years has been difficult for me because home means so much to me. Renting since 2014 has been hard, it makes me insecure and afraid. The ambiguity of not having control over things makes me uneasy as a Momma Bear. Today something very very exciting is happening after months of rather complicated arrangements...I am signing the papers to MY OWN HOME!!!!
It is tiny and old but it is surrounded by lovely trees and I knew from the first time I saw it wearing my jammies and a toque after dropping the boys at school that it was right. Before I even stepped inside my heart started shouting out "YES". It felt right. Like I said, it was complicated and is definitely going to be a project fixing it up but I am beyond excited and proud.
So, off to the lawyers I go to empty my bank account and sign on the dotted line and stay tuned for the images of my new to me nest and endless DIY projects to come.
Luv ya friends, your support on this journey is something that fills me up and keeps me moving forward always. I would love to have you all over for a house warming but it will have to be outdoors because the biggest challenge of my new abode is that it is tiny. Full of possibility but not without entertaining challenges for sure.